Diary Entry #1

Hello you beautiful People. I have been contemplating allot and wanted to share some of it with you. Many of my friends have been talking about not wanting a relationship.  I have been thinking about this, I think what we are all saying is that we don’t want to have the same relationship, as we have had in the past.  That’s it we do not want to be co-dependent, ruled by jealousy or insecurities any more. When you look at like that it makes complete sense of course, relationships should get better and better. Each one allowing you to tweak and change things. Some people are lucky enough to have one partner to tweak with so maybe we are all saying that we want very different relationships. As we are having relationships whether you want them or not. So let’s set out to make them so much better.

I have had many years of being made to feel guilty for my sexuality and to be honest I am so over it. Why can I not be a sensual woman ? Why is it such a threat? Why are woman now being told what to do to become a ‘high value’ woman. It seems to mean, that this is achieved by not having sex, till you find your “soul” mate.  Firstly what is a high value woman and who made that distinction. Could it have been a man?. I wonder. Also how can you know if a person is really a good match for you if you do not have sex with them. It is about seeing the real them. The naked truth. A person has nothing to hide behind once you remove their clothes, some can keep their masks on but others are obvious. Also sex is such an important part of a relationship that not knowing if you are even compatible in the bedroom is a risky business.

I believe that we cannot separate the sexual desire from the need for connection and kindness.  No one wants to be fucked, do they? is it my age? Have I grown softer over time? Many questions.  I have always said that it is not possible to connect sexually without connection.  All the boys that try this, will not kiss you, or cuddle, or look at you because all of these things equate to connection.  Those people trying to have a connection without it, are just fooling themselves.  Sex is the sharing of energy and the connection of two people so you cannot do it without developing a connection.  Seems obvious doesn’t it. Thank you for listening or reading. My Love to you all xx